Because I'm so stupid and such a fool
My eyes don't see nobody but you
Even though I know you love someone else
You could never know the pain that I felt

You probably never think of me at all
I won’t be in the memories either, however
Only you, I looked only at you
And the tears keep coming

As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy
Even yet you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go

There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m wiating for you

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
Only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
Even though your heart will never be mine
It's enough just seeing you smile
But I cannot smile with you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
My heart is hurting in all these sad days
I want to see you
"I love you" is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

Bye bye, never say goodbye
Even though it's not me by your side
I need you, I just can't say it but I want you
I cannot stop wishing for you

There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
I’m thinking about you so much everyday
My heart is hurting in all these sad days
I want to see you
"I love you" is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
Alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you




cant believe that someone have the guts to rip my heart apart
and the more he rip it, the more im attracted to it
how sick can this be?
i really need to be awake just for a min to realise whats happening to me
slap me my besties, tell me that its been long gone
and i should stop holding dear to this person, who doest exist anymore..


i'm leaving in less than 17 hours...
Clar has left
17 hours is useless already, cause i no longer have any hope in waiting anymore
the worse thing, i saw it, so whats there to feel hopeful for?
7 days, ill play and enjoy myself as much as i can..
putting everything behind me would be better off at this point of time
take care fells'


today definitely suck for me, moody all the way
and why does all i want for christmas is you keep playing on my itunes?
i miss christmas back in 2007. its because of then, it got me feeling more hopeful than i would.
but because of this extra hope that i felt since then. it ruined my life completely from then, till now.
being too hopeful is being self deceiving...
i miss dec'07 though i wasnt in my best of state but at least... okay wait, there's no difference from today. maybe its not a bad thing if things repeat. cause i know when the light comes
but no, this light wont appear cause its taking too long.. way too long...
and now a lil happier cause i am talking to priya and just finish talking to hweemin and some others
but they are the lead. and guess what's hweemin last words to me before i go jarkata to court some for death as there is a 6.4 magnitude earthquake there yesterday... LOSER FOR LIFE
LOL, hweemin is SO cute and SO nice
hope you wont kill yourself because of Feruz, hahahha! no life bitch! :D


and i was suppose to be shopping at malaysia now but my passport aint with me "/ LOL!
today mr Imran will msg us like a big daddy to ask us go sleep
i call him a beast, LOLLL!! and he was like gonna puke when talking to me and Kwok Onn cause we both ask the same question! HHHAHHAHA! we are going to the G heart camp! he's gonna burn our passport ;D so fun woots!
k i should go pack soon and shut all the emo shit up
im gonna go eat ny choco waffles ;D better eat all the good stuff before i go Jarkata
should i buy chocolate there too? it'll melt.
Annan is packing the food in the world up the plane ;D HAHAHHA!!
maybe i should just steal some from him ;D yay!
BYE EVERYONE, last post here until im back! (:
when im back, rest a day, maybe pon school another day and go for Mawai camp
and 3 days pass and im back and lets celebrate halloween then rest for a day and NCO camp! :D
i need to learb malay for both Jarkata and NCO camp, someone help me!

I wish i've never seen you as someone innocent.

Because what in front of me now denies.

complete bullshit, i feel disgusted, it irks me.
you have no idea how contradicting this would be, but the truth now is right before my eyes
whatever that can be condone has already been
and now, things have gone too far that i cant possibly ignore
too bad that i have to pass this comment, how disgusting you are...
innocent? yes. its almost bullshit.
not for the past, but definitely for present.
now that i should've woken up, i will act rationally towards you.


Today morning was completely boring and waste of time
speech day was like "/ omg. gotta rot there for 45mins doing nothing...
then GOH came and talking session starts... lasted for 1 hour
then start to give out prize and they release us late!
Jarkata camp, change of plans.
Taking plane from Yog to Jarkata now, awesome!
and the schedule kinda change.. gotta flash the pictures taken on my TV later..
Awesome hanging out with the FELLAS today ;D
didnt catch movie today with E cause i told him to rest since he was unwell
so instead.. cookie monster, get out of my way, big wayne, sian, smelly and siao went to eat lunch together with me after the whole thing... woots! and im trans ;D HAHAHAH!
i cant wait to play at the camp dom. eugene's gonna be a funny shit cause he claimed that he can learn dance in sec. LOL!!
Sunday 7am departure time, bye bye singapore~
hugged hweemin today <3 and jake says he's gonna come my house to look for me tomorrow, HAHAHAHAH!
Mr Singh got the loudest clap today anyway, it was damn funny! couldnt stop laughing, almost cried ;x hahahhaha!


going out soon, and tomorrow will be packing day.
leaving singapore for 1 week, damn long...
and Priya, i'll survive there, even without his care (: love ya
oh and Happy 1st Year Clarissa and Eng Yang ;D
Eng Yang should have woken up after a good tick from me, hope now he doesnt give you problem yes Clarissa? (: wanna see you two last too, showing me that its not a taboo baby ;)

Your love is my beginning

And i know it wont be too long

Till i see you

I hear you

I love you

alright, and im so going out with E tomorrow, awesome!
gonna catch a movie and what he call, hang out.
but both of us are such busy people that we only have a few hours, and just for movie
tomorrow is speech day, guess ill be seeing many fellas back in school tomorrow, not fun.
school's gonna end at 10 and dance till 11 as im gonna laugh my ass off throughout the whole session :D HAHAHHA!
then chiong home and dress up and get going..
at night going out with family with some uni guy, LOL! Mr university, lalala~
sizzler tomorrow night, hell yeah!!
im still praying that Jarakat have no earthquake, crap.


today was kinda crappy cause we have to sing the National Anthem over and over again as if we were covering up for all that we missed for various holidays... zzz..
and its always the sec 3 as target, just because we stand right in front of the teacher's face..
honestly, they should check out on other levels and lets be fair about it. sigh...
restless today, played human snap with mei hui today, was really crazy..
i accidentally scream very loud because when Mei Hui snap, she scare me. HAHAHHA!
thank god, though SS was technically wrong but history SEQ definitely balance it out a lil.
i didnt fail anything, thank god, really...
and till now, i am still definitely sad about this friend but i doubt i have to do anything about it
when someone changes, nothing can hold it back..
that explains why i love photographs, because everything changes, except that...
memories are held only in photographs, something that will never change..
Subway and KFC, Koufu and Tiong with friends every weekday dinner with different group of people (: its nice hanging out with the new fell's, they are really funny and love listening to my stories. hahahah! Queenstown the PAP, LOL!
Ikea trips were totally fun and my dear friend went back to his hometown
i cant wait to see how Mr Imran and Ms Ina look like when they learn the dance from us, gonna be fun! ;D
so much packing to do, i kinda dont feel like leaving singapore, away from comfort..
and i lugi 2 holidays, thats unfair
im so not... no, many people are so not interested for the mawai camp, so boring! gosh!


Hweemin, Priya, Clarissa, Mei Hui, Jake should be those most inmportant people that i will miss after i leave for Jarkata.
okay, and no one's buying me snacks to be entertain for the 12 hours Yog to Jarkata trip, no one to buy me mosquito repelent so that i wont bitten cause im way to sweet, no one to buy my plasters in case i get bitten but those dumb leeches, no one to nag at me to ask me to take care.. k, other than my lovely parents that packed me all the medicine that i may need...
and im still waiting...

Teach me how to love

Show me the way to surrender my heart

Boy I'm so lost

How i can get my emotions involved

Teach me, show me how to love

woah. 10 thousand years since i blog a proper post
i haven been good, puff another time, late for school once. oops
exam period was really stressful, studied hard enough but...
my results aint that good for me to feel contented, i deserve better judging from my hardwork
but whatever, flunked it so forget it.
so much activities took place.
went out with band friends, throughout the whole level chapala go out together also.. HAHAHA!
went sentosa too, but didnt get tan at all cause the weather was shady
great disappointment down the road, chill out with pri sch friends and some new friends too
in 4 days time, ill leaving leaving for Jarkata at 7am. need to reach airport by 5am, omg
thats crazily early.. oh and recently i met 2 cool dudes, all much older than me but cool
and have been thinking a lil too much recently cause someone definitely wanna confuse me again?
yeah, i totally hate that feeling alright.. maybe i shouldnt care


somehow i have a bad feeling about Jarkata trip, lol
pray hard people, that all of us are gonna come back safely
hope that we'll have fun there (:
today we did the dance for the fare well night and got our polo T
i haven pack my luggage and ima have dinner this saturday with family and a uni dude..
so when am i gonna start packing? beats me.
but all in all, these few days, ive been waiting for something...
right, just like what Mike said, now i forgotten what i have to blog so forget it.
signing off right here, bye!

do you know what i have been waiting for?

do you know that this is confusing me?

do you know that nothing have change?

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder

I know that, you'll be right back

Baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You say you gotta go and find yourself

You say that you're becoming someone else

Don't recognize the face in the mirror

Looking back at you

You say you're leavin

As you look away

I know theres really nothin left to say

Just know i'm here

Whenever you need me

I'll wait for you

So i'll let you go

I'll set you free

And when you see what you need to see

When you find you come back to me

Take your time i wont go anywhere

Picture you with the wind in your hair

I'll keep your things right where you left them

I'll be here for you

I can't get close if your not there

I can't get inside if theres no soul to bear

I can't fix you i can't save you

Its something you have to do

So i'll let you go

I'll set you free

And when you see what you need to see

When you find you come back to me

Come back to me