When believes begin to shatter

yesterday was a late evening... and i came home around 9
Kumar messages me early in the morning to find scores
and i have to send it BP
talking about lessons first.. boring as can be.
i studied the time table and i think that wednesday is the most tensed.
sleeping during SS test, not like i want.
woke up with scribbles on the paper, and couldnt finish my comparison question because i did the infer with purpose wrongly.
its on malaysia, i wrote it on sri lanka -.- LOL!!
remember i was talking about this group of sec 5s(girl/guy) were staring at me so tightly during recess?
i thought they wanted to.... (negative) but actually, its not -.-
before i found out the truth i was having insomnia until some guy from sec 5 text me to tell me "/
main point is that, im damn relieved. phew...
guess more or less i dont have to say, smart people could guess...
Physics was hell of a bullshit. who said it was easy?
like most of the people will fail this paper in my class la!?
draw the parachutist, super funny. everybody has different diagram. cute shytzxz


so i stay back with some people and i edited the song once again.
but no network, so couldnt do synchronizing..
was so busy in the afternoon for both the editing and the score..
Bing Ru helped me to look for some score with Lionel and then we waited for Habib.
Habib and Bing Ru went to BP with me (: awesome!
journey was funny, talked about many many things..
made sense, and nonsensical. but the nonsensical part is really funny.
LOL! 2 bucks drink, 30 cents plain water, 15 cents cup, 5 cents service charge... HAHAHH!
see one couple and we kept laughing, super evil
but it got me understanding one thing, which is good...
finally reach BP and gobbled my sundae cause the guys were faster than me "/
later Kumar bitch about us say why we didnt buy for him, LOLL!
reach there everybody was staring and i have to give out scores "/ grr
saw another Pri sch friend and was kinda amazed? :D
2 of them talked to me as we walk out to Lot 1 and Jing Mei was really high about seeing me... hahahah, did a short catching up.


Habib went off and left with Kumar, Bing Ru and I
oh anyway, i call Kumar, Palapam now, HAHAHHA! new name! :D
most shocking thing is that Sin Hua and another BP dude was going up to the food court!
so we sat together and stoned and talk and decided to buy our meal
i got pepper lunch for myself pulling Bing Ru in to accompany me, lol
so we talk and play, with Kumar's food when he's away.. LOLL!! but i wasnt that mean, didnt do much to it ;D
laughed quite alot and about my baby picture, BOTH! the one when i was 3 and another 1 -.-
talked about gym and then talk about an activity that is proven to be better than any exercise. AHAHAHHA! shhh, nevermind..
after talking forever and whatever not, we left the food court..
saw the judges' comments and some were totally illegible.
and i have bump on my arm right now due to the static i felt yesterday from Kumar and it hurts and itch!!
went home later and Kumar was talking about some greeky music to Sin Hua
then kumar left after a few stops and left me and Sin Hua
quite awkward "/ but able to talk about stuff..
He's going for the Audition to School of Music, University of Melbourne. like wow
all the best to him, and i get off the train, with a awkward goodbye cause we stared longer than expected "/ (Priya!!!!! WINKS WINKS HAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!)
what a music genius he is, piano, flute, percussion etc etc... wow. crazy mallet player.


got home and didnt do anything. happiest day of the week cause dont have to study for test
called Bille but didnt pick up, imma continue my prank today! :D
and he stared at me like nobody's business in the morning waiting for me to greet him.
not good morning, but happy birthday. LOLL!
ive been talking about it like 24/7 about it and he insisted no treats no presents. what a bull
so at the parade square he stared at me, waiting...
end up i laughed like pretty hard seeing his expression and then i went to my class. AHAHHA!
next was recess, he stared at me and walked pass me, increasing speed.
woops, someone angry liao~
tonight before 12, ima be the last person to wish him ;D
he's guarantee chop chop thinking bout how absurd i am today, hahahha! joker!
Kristy was so sweeet today :D she brought me cheese toufu from home! :DD
awwh... i was so touched. and i ate all of them during history lesson, heh! first period..
then rest of the time im sleeping ;P Trigo was no problem for me, i think
cosine rule is so troublesome -.-
if anyone would wanna talk logic with me, i think math will be the best subject. esp a math...
saw some video during SE, its quite stupid.. the girl sucks "/ im never gonna be like her


after school went for lunch and remedial, talked to chen yan. lol
remedial was kinda fun, a math was fun too.
remedial was a math again. LOL! but its binomial now.
during school period was on trigo, toughest a math topic in sec 3 claim to be
went off with Mei Hui and homed~
seem like tomorrow's gym gotta be cancelled ):
Jillene is still having her aches when i recovered like a few centuries ago?
Mei Hui has something cropped up in the last min when she agreed to go this time round
Leon says he wanna learn boxing with me ;D woots!
Hao Xu's birthday tomorrow..
going to Bugis with Jillene tomorrow and getting that high waist shorts with my own cash!!
gonna eat KFC i think, suiting Jillene's taste..
i hope im going to gym tomorrow ); like before my trip out of town..
my temperature is burning 24/7, why?
im always 1 degree higher than normal people... "/ suck
gonna study Geog later, test tomorrow.
but i think i wanna sleep first ;P having bodyaches
as if im gonna get high fever soon, shit. bad sign
no one's gonna take care of me, im independent myself
i cant afford to fall sick now. please be healthy
Priya, who cares bout her? she's enjoying her life faking everyone at home now!
thinking bout ba chor mee and yong tau foo. LOLLL!
tomorrow hope she dont have cramp and can come out to meet me :D
miss her to the core! (stop acting big la, cocky bitch! LOLLL! :D)
im out~

But it just don't seem like yesterday we were still together
Time has passed and things have changed so
Why do I feel this way
Cos you're with somebody else
And I'm with somebody else but
Whenever I think about the love we had
It hurts so bad
Whenever I think about the love we made
I said that I'd be strong
Girl I really thought that I'd move on
But still I find myself asking
Do you still think of me like I think about you
Do you still dream of me cos I can't sleep without you
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
Your love has got me addicted
Said I don't know
When I'm with a chick and hittin it girl I call your name
Said I don't know
When I be with somebody else I push them away
Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same
I know I gotta move on but I'm so addicted to you
It's been long enough don't know why I'm still holding on
If I had a wish babe I would turn back the hands of time
Cos you don't know what you got untill it's gone
It's the reason why I'm writing you this song
Girl I'm slippin and I don't know what to do
Girl I admit it, I'm sick over you
Damn I realised my mistake, my pride got in the way
I should have begged you to stay

Jacob must be thinking...
this girl must have rushed home to blog today again... LOLL!
NO! so WRONG! hahahah! LOSER! suffering in school like nobody's business while i out with a whole BIG and i mean BIG bunch of people for lunch :D
Hweemin called me after school and it kinda gave me a shock, she joined in too (:
initially with some girls but later expanded and somehow change change change and yeah. LOL
Hweemin was totally overwhelmed by this two hot guys that were staring at us when we walked pass
i feel embarrassed, cause probably they look because they thinks that im standing with a freako. LOLLL! :D HAHAH!
Hweemin was so excited that she wanted to take a picture with this two hotties
but excuse me, they arent Singaporean obviously "/
some kinda Caucasian.. didnt really give a GOOD look, unlike Hweemin that tried so hard to walk pass them a few times to get tissue paper, to get chilli this and that. LOLL!
it made me sound like a bitch now, hweemin.. LOL!
they left, without taking photo with her, she regretted not sharing seats with them. HAHAH!


was sleeping during english test today, was definitely writing rubbish
super chim passage, hate it. i bet im not gonna do well for this paper
i was writing illogical stuff with my delirious mind. expected, ugly handwriting too...
tuesday is a slacker day, love it ttm.
but next next tuesday will be hell for me cause ill probably get only 3 hours of sleep? omg
i'd rather ton and go school man "/ is someone gonna do it with me this time round?
reminding Hao Xu day and night about his birthday... LOL! this friday~ waiting...
he expect to get some present for me, that would be a cup of milo :D HAHAH!
and probably luck wasnt on my side these days..
no idea why a bunch of people always stare at me 0.o and calling my name? 0.o
not like i know them or i finally knew some of them existing after schooling in the same school for 2 solid years...
just wish that this aint anything BIG or ill be in a shit with a ferocious fella.
maybe ill just bring her down instead of the other way round of how she treat others. lol


tomorrow's screwed up. physics and SS test. ima kill myself
hell stressed up, i dont feel like studying..
screw newton's law and all the losers that make irrelevant initials -.-
Mr Chia pinned his hope on my to be a famous scientist next time so as to change the initials of certain unit or something...
maybe he was eyeing at the madness part of scientist to relate it to me "/ hahha!
all i know is that he's very proud and happy of me that finally after teaching me for 3 years, i scored A1 for physics :D
all of a sudden my science was awesome this mid year
hoping for the same for EOY too but excuse me, i guess im dreaming..
sleepy day today though i slept at 1130 last night ):
today must sleep at 11, see if there's difference...
my name will officially be tarnished today by some idiots on facebook, LOL!
he claimed that i pangseh-ed him when i dont even think he actually give a damn?! LOL!
who ask you to restring your racket, HAHAH, LOSERS!!
going to facebook now to build some good image for myself (: HAHAH!
whatever, bye~

Sometimes it's hard to know where I stand,
it's hard to know where I am,
Well maybe it's a puzzle I don't understand.
Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm
stranded in the wrong time
where love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme, a soundbite
Is it any wonder I'm tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?
Oh, these days, after all the misery made,
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?
Nothing left inside this old cathedral,
just the sad, lonely spires,
How do you make it right?

speaking of today, geog book almost landed on someone's face again.
no, not someone...
got 20/20 for a and e math test consecutively, freakin amazed
as usual, people coughing(esp Desmond) thinking that its impossible..
i thought about it too... LOL. by luck still, i got it.
horrible time waking up this morning as i slept at 0130?! madness!
watching tv ;P LOL! forgotten to reply someone's msg, sorry! (:
ate holiday inn pastries early in the morning :D
such an expensive breakfast yet tasty, woots!


PE was really stressful for me.
Due to some new circumstances that i've never face, i have really difficulty progressing..
obviously, i got the shit. not a big one but still..
i mean, its my effort and time. its hell load of time
some appreciate, some dont. some think the dance is awesome, some dont
cant force everyone to like it, just try to compromise
ima girl, girl dance. trying to make it to as guy as possible already
i dont know whats girl dance boy dance..
dance, is an art. dances are unisex, if you do it well, it can be awesome
just cant please everyone, im having a hard time right now.. really..
just think about one single (secret) factor, im having hell load of transparent problems already..
if everyone just doesnt agree with the dance, my effort is literally drained..
hope everyone can cooperate and make the best out of the last dance in your secondary life.
bring a smile with you on every practice and leave with a smile, not a frown
not a smile of humiliation, but a smile of joy and contentment.
seriously.. if you guys wanna whine.. think about the one here who computer got crash due and remix the song for 3 complete times and have to stare at the bloody screen and waste my life away just to get and simplidy dance steps.
kind of sad today... hope tomorrow's CME period would be better
i am in total lack of confidence to show anything at all, thanks to the best factor.


Geog later, restless madness!
Recess got me up a lil but it doesnt help
Chem, got the test paper back.. not ideal but alright..
because i done my ionic equation wrongly, GG.
im suppose to simplify further but i didnt. dang!
and i hate to balance, so i didnt. HAHAHAH!
SS was Ms Azlina in today. awesome lesson because it was fruitful
at least she left the class with me knowing what to do in comparison SBQ.
English, whatever. just going through some difficult compre
test tomorrow, chem too -.- test test test
i think i have to bring my paper and pen along with my vacation soon..
AM was complete turn off. binomial theorem is too stressful for a zombie today -.-
other than the test that got me awake for a lil while, then... KO.
scribbled through my questions and when i open my eyes..
DANG! it was just a piece of useless scrap being vandalized. LOLL!
its so me man! but i haven been like that for a very long time...
Assem was some Jazz dance.
the awesome 4, Abu, Ming Duo, Kevin and Zen when on stage as (unwilling) volunteers. how contradicting.. LOL
awesome jump over and dance steps. the performers were commendable too..


lunch with Mei Hui and went to talk to Mandy and Nicoles after that :D HAHAH!
about the suitable post i should take, BM or DM. hmm... Priya with the BIG mace :D HAHAHA!
and shouting for commands and scolding people! woots! wanna see :D LOL!
talked alot about OTHER things too, mostly were concern.
after a longgg talking session, went to meet Mei Hui and Jillene again for the proj..
there's progress, woots! and i have to set the survey later..
after done, they left. and i continued to spend my time with Nicole Lai and Mandy..
then interact a lil with Louise later on and i did a lil work
like amazing but true... LOL! when the rain get lighter, we left school.
970-ed with Nicole and home. i was pretty penniless today because i forgotten to bring money
but enough for me to survive.. good enough..
im hungry cause i haven eat, what should i eat? no junk.
and its not very early now, no food should be consumed 0.o
fruits maybe? yep.. need to do the survey now, better go off. bye!

I use to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We use to kiss all night, now it's just a barfight
So don't call me crying
Say hello then goodbye
All the time I wasted on you,
All the bullshit you put me through
I'm checking into rehab cause everything that we had
Didn't mean a thing to you

woots! may be going night cycling at east coast~
invited by Aaron Wan :D i bet Leonard's going too! omg!
so long no see, paiseh sial.
but i wanna go i wanna go!
maybe mom wont allow, gonna grab a few people to go with me!
but Priya slow rider, how? LOLL!
Priya, get well soon okay? hope your fever subside
though you really wanna get H1N1, but still recover soon.. HAHAH!
im destroying your wish! :DD


nothing much today..
just stayed home and waste my whole life on ACES day
thats why i seriously hate to get myself involved in all these.. yaks!
i haven do any homework, GG for me!
currently messaging with damn a lot of people 0.o stress man.
i have to refer back again, cause i cant remember what i send "/
i only have very little dance steps now, i hope tomorrow's PE can be filled up though "/
screw Mixcraft, really driving me mad, wasting me life!
my muscles are still aching, especially the abs. suck.
a few people's brithday soon, whee~
tomorrow will be alonggggg day ):
assembly and history remedial after that. argh!
ulcers all gone, WOOTS! teeth problem still present..
quite late already 0.o but every sunday i sleep to late.
i wish i dont have a hard time with lessons tomorrow.
open my eyes like this big, O.O LOL!
buh bye, and i love Lesley Roy

Don't hang up, can we talk?
So confused, it's like im lost.
What went wrong?
What made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me, I'm unchangeable
When did we, fall apart?
Or did you lie, from the start?
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we, we're unbreakable
It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.
I've been told, whats done is done
To let it go, and carry on
And deep inside, i know that's true
I'm stuck in time, I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

whoo! watching MTV now, didnt watch the channel 5 kid shows for Priya that she ask me to watch
Linkin Park live concert! current song, BLEED IT OUT!
one of my favourite songs from LP! woots woots! damn hot(not the band, the crowd i mean. LOL)
I was suppose to start my post with this today: The Universal Illusion that Sustains Reality(?)
apparently, i forgotten the phrase that Priya bombed me.
oh, today was fruitful for my damn mouth, gosh! courtesy of Priya
meet her at Holland and eat some weird yong tau foo. yeeks!
then later we went to Swensons and laughed our asses out while talking about SIN.... LOL
we saw Zilia there anyway.. Me and Priya talked alot of shit.
had coit tower! and i probably still remembered what exactly happened before right at that place, that sit, what time, what i lost, my body condition and what someone always do after eating..
memorable and got caught in the act of reminiscing... :/
went off to buy some food for Priya's family.. and and and that big fat ass!
tau foo when see meet me, She ate like instant noodles in the morning, Rice+egg+tofu before coming out to meet me, yongswensons after yong tau foo, and subway later for dont know what meal you call that! supper!!
omg, she needs the gym.. then she'll start telling me how i gain weight from the gym -.-


yesterday i went gym! with Jillene Koh and we had fun there and seriously work out.
ran forever without stopping with high speed, chatting with some dude beside me also cause he out of nowhere talked to me about how much i frequent gym 0.o
then went to do all sorta equipments which is like damn cool la
my whole body's aching now including my ass and inner thigh..
my back, my arms, abs, calf and everywhere. gosh
did so many incline sit ups and the ab crunch.
ran and cycle and do the weird machine for like 1000+ revolution
after all this crap, i gain weight after gym!! wtfag!??!
this is damn not fair la, muscles should weight twice lesser than fats!!
for no reason some fit people i know go the (overweight) club. i forgotten whats that called
when its only the muscles that weigh crazily heavy. argh!
then went subway with that weak teeth of mine. too heaty ):
cant bite a shit la, swallowed half of my food. then we talk alot too.. LOL
more of her, cause i was in such bad condition till i dont wanna talk much
and randomly i wanna say this; whatever you see/hear/understand from/read/know may not be what the TRUTH really is.
worked very long on the ACES dance, really very long
took a few hours to remix the song, end up, cannot save for certain reason
i almost cry because of that, it annoys me
and i cry from watching tv last night! wthell, so pisces la. emotional freak
now i should remix the song again. first, download the software again
then later go learn the dance, and maybe watch boys over flowers simultaneously
not crazy over the show, but what other entertainment is there?


i lose a lot, every now and then..
but i gain a lot, through all this lost
i dont know if i should range it as a good thing
but all i know is that, im still very nostalgic
i love the past, i miss the past
i dont mind having my life stuck there forever as long as its good
my blog URL wasnt made like that for no reason
trust me, dont assume. ask me, dont ask yourself.
everything of 2008, i love it. everything of SM1, i love it. everything of SM2, changing upside down.

So i act cool
On the outside
But it's eating me
Alive

Cause when it comes to you
There's nothing i can do
I can't make you love me
When you don't
I see it in your eyes
All the compromise
I can't take another
Slow goodbye

Sitting in the park
After dark
Smoking cigarettes
Biting on the black of my nails
Cuz all i ever wanted
Was what you took away from me
Trying to make it right
But it`s too late
I`m a hopeless case
On the inside
And it`s eating me
Alive

give me a chance to fill your emptiness, will you?

wow, now MF dont allow me to upload photos, wtheck.
i have like one load of photos to post today but too bad~
washed one photo and gonna put it on band notice board.
today was like madness. under all my conditions, we've got the notice board done
like finally?! im happy, the thing looks awesome.
best in history :D AHAHAHAH!
my ulcers are killing me, feel like biting my tongue off
went home like damn late today.. thanks to the notice board


today was quite slack. was sleeping in history class.
got 19/25 for my test, not bad not bad.
i gotta work on answering reliability SBQ, other than that im fine (:
full mark for inference! :D woots!
did A Math today and im pretty confident
though ive been bitching about this topic, linear law..
but today seemed alright.. easier than the mastery test
SE was inspirational, for my dance. not the lessons, it was free period
Mr Kong ask me to write on the board self study or whatever.
then he left and i wrote this. SE Period, "self study"
LOL! wtheck, what a good chairman (:
lunch with class girls today and obviously i was the slowest. lol
oh today morning for flag raising was funny
first time hweemin raise the singapore flag. i ran to her and told her this, "Hweemin, you sure you can see the flag or not? or your neck very tired?" i laughed like mad
as usual, she called me to fuck off, LOL!
we are too good friends to feel anything for that command, we laugh when we hear it~ LOL
remedial was fun today like always.
as long as Ms Ng's teaching.. ;D she's a fun teacher.
somehow i pity the A class, i hope they make out well with their own form teacher
its better to take a step back and everybody find peace than to hold on grudges forever
everybody should be forgiving, and not trying to find faults.


i suppose i have lotsa things to do later
edit video, finding ways and programme
calling Mei Hui to confirm Gym
calling Jillene to reply her
calling Priya to laugh. i mean, talk about band stuff for tomorrow and going BUGIS to buy that ass shorts!! BUGIS?!?! LOLL
should i call choot? ah, maybe not
bathe cause i haven
learn two 8s before tonight end
study physics in case tomorrow the test is on "/ (as if)
confirm with Wee Keat about saturday
and do some meditation in case tomorrow i really slam my geog book right in someone's face
that should be it? ah, youtube is the toughest part.
ciaos man!

i hate photos, but lets forget about them.
i think IE has problems, using MF again.
yesterday was a pretty short day to me.
Chem test, English test. LOL, so boring..
after school intended to go Tiong to buy materials for decoration notice board with Priya
when we were there, Teacher messaged us that she dont even know the notice board location?! "/
my bag was with me but not Priya's "/ keep seeing Darren Lee and went back school with HyunSu
took Priya's bag and off we go to Far East to meet Jillene and Jingyi (:
oh, have been playing with Mei Hui too :D Jillene bathed it and we play with it for the whole day, feeding it water. its a hamster. LOLL!
whereas Mei Hui didnt come to school and bore me the whole day
thank god with Jillene's company, it was better.
so we shop at Far East laughed alot and painted nails (so gay) but fun, LOL!
all the way till 1830 then me and Priya hop on the same bus went home
Priya was so happy that she's taller than me, standing on the steps on the bus "/ she love it. LOL
and then, time to face the reality when we got off.... HAHAHHA!


Gym was cancelled today, dang! I planned my time "/
so after all, easy for me to have another thing coming up to settle cause i seriously have many things to work on
Chinese test today, Class photo taking
because two girls didnt come and i as chairman have to sit.
but beside Ms Ng :D LOL! the joker~ hahaha!
Wee Keat also got dragged in, LOL! only guy~ hahaha!
fun shot, my hair got pulled up straight?! LOL. my head was kinda down
and turbulence, to Hao Xu! HAHAHA! was quite fun though, can be better (:
so slack today, dismiss at 1 yet have to wait for some idiot till forever?!?!?
then we went to Tiong this time suppose to come back but at last didnt
but this time both of our bags with us :D awesome!
went to eat subway at Tiong, something funny happened along the way~ hahah!
and as we were leaving, we saw Joel, Xu Ke, Darren and Zhihao again!
we STAND at subway except for Priya and talk forever and freeze down there
a bunch of jokers they are, seriously damn funny
and i forgotten whats that greek word they keep telling me, dang!
the neoprint boys! madcow~ LOL. and lame jokes and everything
laugh pretty badly, just look at their faces. you'll laugh
Xu Ke is the cool one that doesnt laugh too widely but keep laughing like Edward, oh i just realise. hahahha!
went to Popular and took forever to buy the materials
AND AND AND! miracle happened here?!?!
i got Xu Ke to join band?! WTHECK! LOLLL. cya in next band prac :D HAHAH!
quite happy today and lovin it. though wasnt according to plan.. (:
yes i enjoy every part and everything of my life
but recently some pest has been pissing me off and lets not elaborate till i go crazy


tomorrow kinda need to go subway again to treat Joel by the 'bangla that cannot keep promises' LOLLLL! damn funny?!
but gonna get the notice board done tomorrow.
hope our effort pay off, dang.
how many things am i suppose to get involve with?
i need some more inspirations on the dance too.
tomorrow will be fun i bet, though its serious matter to handle
try to drag Edrick and Xu Ke & Joel in. LOLL!
some morons online name david tan is an idiot. bye

i wish someone would actually read this freaking longggg post though its freaking long... HAHAH
bet none of yall will luh "/ so longg



Internet Explorer just died on me and i dont know why
currently surfing mozilla firefox.
Awesome like it was, i learn to enjoy everyday of my life.
Acting blind sometimes do help in being happier, its better off this way
Tests and tests lining up this entire week. Im not too sure of how to cope with it
After school have so many activities till i lose track of the prior
Poor Lex sprained his ankle and have some tear in the ligament(?)
Hope you recover soon Lex, you'll be able to play basketball soon (:
Thanks to all those who wrote appreciation letter to me and those too lazy to write to anyone like me(Hweemin & Avriel) LOL!
i didnt write to anyone this year too. or rather, some i wrote but lazy to bring it to school "/ LOL
Good friends have very little words to write in there..
We say thank you to each other everyday, whats the point of that small lil column that dont even have enough space to express our gratitude.
But there are some awesome friends that i got closer with this year i seriously wanna thank.
What about this, save the trouble to write those shit. Ill just state those who i intend to write to:
Clarissa, Mei Hui, Ilyasa, Jieru, Avriel, Hweemin, Rafael, Priya, Lex, Kevin, Mandy Mok, Kelvin Wang, Wee Keat, Eunice, Jillene, Daryl Law, Daryl Wong, Jaeme, Kah Hoe.
Erm, thats about it i suppose? Oh and outside school people i dont mention already.. lol
If you see your name, smile. If you don't see your name, still smile.
Maybe next year if we were closer or i appreciate you for something you've done, then ill write..
Actually there's more than that, but some people just wanna go against my kindness, so forget about it. You dont deserve my precious time and energy to remenisce.
Nothing to reminisce about with you! Ugh.


Friday
Went out with Priya after school and its always so awesome~
Was so restricted and i couldnt buy anything as not approve by my mom or she'll either slaughter me when i get home..
Went to, Bugis anyway. bus journey was full of chit chattings as usual, love it with her! :D
Went to Bugis Street and something funny happened there with two ang mohs. HAHAH!
Wanted to buy a bloody high waist shorts and i dont care ima get it, with my own cash!
After fooling around for damn long, finally went to settle down at Pasta Mania with that weight on my shoulder. gosh.
Was suppose to change but yet to. LOL! so we talked damn alot again and it was pretty heartfelt, more of Priya talking to me cause i was listening :D
Then we laughed alot once we step out of there ever since..
We played around at cold storage(between two of us & SH) LOLLL!
Not as if we were there to wreck the store. HAHAH!
Decided to go Vivo on bus 80 and spontaneously hop out of it at Peninsula, so me~ hahah!
Me and Priya bought a bag anyway. but that was for her sister and mine's for me! :D
its pretty nice, like it alot. for studying out.. (:
Speaking of that, next week may have a few dates on studying out.. can i combine..? :DD
Oh and i finally went to visit my cousin's music store.
So capable of them, they have expended their business.
Collaborating with Universal Studio and open another branch.
Collected my membership card and ran off to Funan to buy subway cookie.
Went to Citylink(?) and saw this idiotic woman.
NUM guys are hell of a weirdo. Whenever i step in there, forever that same look no matter what branch. damn weird, they look like gundoos too :D with that Jap "headband" LOLL!
Finally got myself changed and headed to Suntec and walked everywhere and fool around and talk and laugh and les..
Proceed to Marina and took forever to find a damn bra -.- LOLL! no size, so i cant buy, ass. Priya go try try also but at last didnt buy. hahahah, took damnn ass long..
Went to Diva and she took forever to choose which head band to buy. HAHAH! then we went home
On the journey i got her all stressed up. Was telling her how stress i am with all the test and assignments and projects and whatever not problem lining up waiting for me to solve it.
Screw it, im just a 15 years old kid and do i have to bear such HUGE burden?
Lighten it for me please... I wish someone would share.
Well, making me laugh is already the best remedy to it, i appreciate it. thank you (:


Saturday
I realise i am seriously very very forgiving.
No one could beat me in this aspect (trying to reach the stage)
Not gonna mention whatever not that happened and concerning my mom!
She has such great MS and i suck it up a few times and forgive immediately
I really admire myself for this, awesome. working better on it (:
Ah, then finally i bought bra on this day. (guys, refrain from seeing this). LOL
So i ate pepper lunch and skipped dinner. Laugh a lot of this day too
Went shopping shopping then see things i wanna buy also cannot ):
I'm freaking going back to bugis to get that shorts. heck!


Sunday
It was a burn my ass day cause i didnt laugh much.
Nothing hilarious as i was probably stoning the whole day in front of my study table, nice and wide
Trying to absorb some shit out of nothing when my mom reminded me that my book was outside, so how can i absorb anything?
Yeah, iPod-ed the whole entire day. LOL
I was prolly fretting about this one thing too.. Discussed with a couple
thanks for the advice ill take it to heart
Girls, no matter what, i wont allow myself to regret.
But as for what i have to do now, i really know.
I just have to sit by and wait and understand a lil before i screw everything up yeah? (:
So damn nice of y'all, loved man! :D dont start soaring~ :DD HAHAHHA!
Slept only at a beautiful hour of 1230 cause Priya was the entire reason for holding me back
I almost kill myself in order to not suffer in fatigue. LOLL
Darren Lee was awesome, every Sunday without fail i'll receive a msg from him past 12?!
Holy crap, official hours please.. Unless your house on fire or something then you hit my alarm.
Knock off immediately i plead to hand off, snoring~


Morning was tough for me, like always..
Nice breakfast to kick start the day and assembly in parade square
Not fabulous before of the crowd and the heat, but the laughters and the catching up. LOL
I sat at the wrong place -.- omg, amnesia ive got.
And i make a few people laugh this morning, better start (:
PE was ACES day, pretty embarrassed due to some small reasons thats all..
after all ive done my best to overcome it and found a way out. great
The dance was crappy and i wish i could improvise on it
But my time can never be that precious especially for this week
So how am i suppose to satisfy the people? I'll try..
Geog was boring today and the Recess was not that bad..
Chem was stressful and hot(test tomorrow), SS was a side track to history and Eng was talking session with Mei Hui~ (test tomorrow -.-)
AM was like pulling my hair off already with that piece of paper in front ofmy face struggling to understand why we have to study A Math instead of solving those greek equations.
It's linear law for damn sake and i hate it to the core.
I think identities was my best. LOLL
After that was fun time during Assem period but in class.
Randomly won a Kit Kat from answering some lame ass question:
What is joss stick burnt for outside the corridor of chinese houses?
To pay respect to the God and dont know what
First option was stupid; for the fragrance -.- wtfag.
Ended the day happily and have History remedial/test after that
struggle through the paper cause obviously i didnt have anything absorbed before i knock off last night
Reliability was a complete bullshit cause i do it in Inference with purpose format.
SEQ was full of bombings and everything just spam on the paper accumulating one full page.
After that was cute, some idiot ironically waved at me squinting his eyes, i dropped jaws
Oh, another dude by the name of Benjamin Ong stared at me today at the canteen after school while i was eating. I thought he was staring at someone behind me when there's no one and he pointed straight at me.
He walked pass me i ask him why he stare at my he say for fun. OMG
Somone is finally more random than Jillene. LOLL
Oh then that some idiot continued his peeing at the corner of the eye session thinking that i couldnt see him
Even when im at the third floor i still can see him looking up la, think i blind? LOL
Maybe gonna call him tonight to disturb. HAHAHA
Oh ya! Jacob Black, now that i know you view my blog EVERYDAY. okay, Die heart fan, good for you :D this blog is like wikeipedia when you search for Coretta's life. LOLL
Thanks for the Appreciation Letter, Alice Leong speaking :D
I have to study Chem later and i mean it.
Maybe gonna call up to Priya and interrupt her while she's eating her chips again to discuss about some matter.. not mine this time round, but hers :D hahahha!
I wanna watch TV one leeh.. hurry study!! so, BYE BYE!

I dont wanna talk
About the things weve gone through
Though its hurting me
Now its history
I was in your arms
Thinking I belonged there
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Building me a home
Thinking Id be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules
The gods may throw a dice
Their minds as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
Its simple and its plain
Why should I complain
But tell me does she kiss
Like I used to kiss you
Does it feel the same
When she calls your name?
Somewhere deep inside
You must know I miss you
But what can I say
Rules must be obeyed
The game is on again
A lover or a friend
I dont wanna talk
If it makes you feel sad
And I understand
Youve come to shake my hand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad
Seeing me so tense
No self-confidence

whee ooo weet! finally i can blog peacefully today
they day is still young, so no one will disturb me :D
ahh, tonight die die must call Train already, yesterday confirm angry already.. cause i didnt call him! LOLL
and ironically, i was helping Nicholas doing his essay on animal abuse.
i helped him edit the thing and i thought it was impressive, to me. LOLL!
so he used my editted one and then he edit again. LOL!
i hope the marker doesn't have to go to the extent of having a dictionary beside him while marking the essay :D woots, good Nicholas!
oh then i was on the phone with him last night talking about the essay then drag to dont know what topic
end up i got talking on the phone for a duration of 1 hour 20 mins when he doesnt really talk to people on phone for that long. he have to listen to nonsense, LOL!



whatever about yesterday, day before yesterday which im blogging halfway through..
so life has been so slack for me right now.
go home is on laptop, not take out worksheet from bag to do. LOl, good job la!
my SEQ haven pass up. next monday is hell stress. A math and History test, damn difficult one.
History have 2 SBQ and 1 SEQ, can go bang the wall and die. as if im sitting ofor major paper
i wish mdm wong's teaching us history now? i hope she returns soon ):
e math test today was chicken feet, first time. as if i didnt have to rack my brains
ms ng is damn a funny teacher anyway, she's a kiddie teacher. LOL
i kinda like today's lessons.. though there's like 6 periods of math in total?!?!
had math remedial today and a math really suck.
we are learning the binomial* thingy and i hate it TTC.
linear law sucks too, a math simply makes no sense. simple.
e math made better sense than a math, screw it.
went off with hweemin the short legs and mei hui.
on the bus met lydia ;D not bad. what a nice ending of today in school.
went off with all my goodies :D woots woots!
best thing, ended off my journey home with ice cream, LOL!



im feeling fat these days, cause no PE and it suck
so tomorrow im heading to the gym, as spontaneous as ever, i ask Jillene if she wanna come along, so she's coming with me tomorrow! :D yay, lets hope we dont embarrass ourselves like *. HAHAHHA!
tomorrow ima spam on cardio work out, damit. run like 2.4km and cycle for 2km with ultraspeed? omg, tire myself out like mad.
priya papiya dont know wanna come or not. msg her can vomit one lor ms die heart fan! LOLL
suddenly go MIA and fainted. zzz... must CALL her ass later. big ass, BIG SHOT AH? :D
how many more sit ups am i suppose to do damit?
i do 50 of 3 sets everyday -.- argh
hey, im suppose to study physics now for tomorrow's test! or can i run away with it?
erm, what about my english project, english research, ACES day dance steps and music, historySEQ, geog notes, chinese hol homework(?!) and everything. damit, too much things to attend to.
chatting with daryl now and he's jealous of rebound love, LOLLL! damn joke
and now that lame ass wanna watch simpsons 0.o LOLL!
ima edit the bumble bee! wheee~ see how i do it :D
going off now, ciaos people! ima enjoy tomorrow, friday!!
but ima cry during weekends for next week ):
excuse me, im gonna go full swing to study okay!! 10 point L1R4 for O'levels!!! (so amibitious -.-but no choice. psychology studies!!!)
daryl asking me to study physics now "/ i think i have to. BYEE!

All this time I was wasting

Hoping you would come around

I've been giving out chances every time

And all you do is let me down

You don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did, before

You're not sorry, no

Looking so innocent, I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

You had me falling for you honey

And it never would've gone away, no

You used to shine so bright

But I watched all of it fade

i have a rebound love, his name is Ilyasa. LOL!


that joker is now my rebound love.
it is the second time in my life i come across with that word.
first time and first person to explain to me was Priya. wow
i bet life's gonna be much funnier from now on. lol
yesterday, i love recess. and erm.. sleepy again "/
oh and i went to Tiong with Eunice, Jillene and Mei Hui.
Mei Hui left for tuition shortly.. and ate KFC with KFC craze(Jillene)
went to Pie Kia later to study and talk alot. LOL!
a better understanding among us and our perceptions and views.
okay nevermind, i gtg already. blog again tomorrow or friday? LOL! bye~

so much things to update right here since ive not been blogging for the past days..
i went online but didnt have time to blog, lol
but first, just let me whine about how much money ive lost today
how cool, i lost almost 50bucks. got stolen by some asshole that i wish him/her dead
how evil can they get? its just the matter of a few mins!
and the best thing, its someone from history class, damit.
i dont wanna know who you are, but you better not let me find our coincidentally which i always do
if i'd seriously wanna persue the matter i could've checked for fingerprints as what Avriel said, hahah!
bitch man, i hate it! im so so so so sad okay! but then my day was later brighten up by a few awesome friend (:
Ilyasa, Rafael, Daryl Chang & Law. i laughed too damn freaking badly and my whole body aches!!
my stomach still hurt from some muscle cramp and the more i laugh then more pain it got!
it hurt so badly but i just continue laughing cause i cant control and suppress my crazy laughters
they are a bunch of jokers!
at first clar was with Rafael and me then later she went home with her boyfriend lor~~~ LOL
Ilyasa and Rafael couldnt stop disturbing me with the hand punch.
everything i say they will hand punch
then Daryl Law will keep laughing like crazy and me too...
Rafael bit Daryl Law's juicy arms that Ilyasa said it has no shape. HAHAHHA!
omg, really a d bunch of funny dude.
then later we started emoing in 3C with my influential mood with the song My Immortal by Evanescene that im so so crazy over lately.
i love that song to the MAX MAX and the lyrics resembles New Moon..
i love that song. love it! then we tried to cry, see who cry first.. hahaha!
then we had some HTH talk about life and everything...
but in the end they cant resist the temptation to disturb me again with the song So Fine by Sean Paul which im hooked up to, too and they say the song contain the word CHEEBYE when its Sean Paul -.- LOLLL!
thanks guys, you made me forget about the 50bucks after whining for damn long
i wanted to eat subway. at last i have to eat in school with price 1/4 of subway! LOLL
thank you to others for the concern of me losing money, and Jun Tee for calling me to tell me about my wallet (:
went to dawson slack awhile and got forced to eat a chip and i am in the group "/ LOL!
Ilyasa and his funny idea. LOL! then Ilyasa kept track of my time and got off from dawson at 1817 (:


this morning was cranked. PE we had to choose songs and choreograph dance like almost immediately
it was crazy. we just did some crappy move to pass our work for the day
shall work on it soon, deeper and more accurate.
Cheng Yuen is like wtheck again! he went bonkers and started changing in the class during Geog -.- after PE and Geog test
he took of his shirt, Jun Peng kept asking me to see. but when i turn over he kinda put it on already
best part is that later Wee Keat called me and i walk to the back.
turn to my right, WTF! he's not wearing any pants?!!? HOW GROSS!!
i need to bleach and *Detol my eyes "/
went for recess and ate a lil. chiong back up to class from chem
sleeping period, so is SS the next. and Eng was a lil active of forming groups
and i really hate this period conjunctionally.. damit.
dont wanna elaborate -.- suck to the core.
then AM i almost rack my brains like mad at the end..
did survey and everything started when i lose my money. thats all for the day


friday, dont wanna elaborate on it
it just suck
i did something that ive not done before
people around me who knows it is so worried now, im sorry...
i shouldnt have known. but ive already thought of the consequences
you know i will, so dont worry..


saturday went out with Clar to Orchard and Bugis
bought alot of clothes again "/ dang! buy too much clothes lately really..
2 dresses one fred perry and one top.
bought 12 sex bands finally and i love it but it stinks too.
and what else did i bought? ah i think thats all
oh, i had fun eating shilin! :D so happy! hahahah i wanna eat again!! :D
went home early and screw the night thats it.


sunday was all at home and trying to study but still slacking all around.
how bored, i should be less lazy
watch tv all the way and ate homecook food finally
miss it ttm (:
oh lets talk about HBC, awesome!
much more understanding than before, more feeling and sensible
so patient and comprimising, perfect (:
oh btw, i saw L4D 2 trailer. I WANNA PLAYYYYY!!!

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears

when you scream i'f fight away all of your fears

and i held your hand through all of these years

but you still have all of me

oh yeah. btw...

someone walked pass my class and peeped at me with it's corner of it's eyes

why geh geh sial? i did that too! LOLL

c'mon, its been centuries since we really talked.

cant you just stop being square and fake that you accidentally dial my number?

ill believe it if i choose to ;)

how irritating can you get man? standard eh!

but im not calling you thats for sure

you should step out of that square self! LOL

how innocent and kuku ;x

SBBKG? LOLL! PRIYAAAA!

SBBKG

:DDD

rafael and edrick~ the two Roti Prata man, UH HUH~ LOL!
im sick! i bet you guys cant see the thingy ive drawn on it. LOL! courtesy of Mei Hui :D

blur~

some grand table, BIG

at some thai restaurant

the tastiest marshmallow on earth that everyone's happily fighting for :D i ate it without fighting though, LOL!

the most memorable pit ever

fyi, its raining..

thats why they are holding onto the umbrella. LOL

my mom's coming home soon, better start blogging. LOL

oh btw, dad went out of country again yesterday.

and today, im downright disappointed.

okay, i really dont know what to say about this.

im preparing and am ready for the worst to happen now.

bring it on, i have better preparations than you thought.

i know how selfish people are, petty and ignorant.

a dude is right, secondary school students...

what a disappointment. mind your words, really.

i almost smash my handphone broken on the table.

i screamed my lungs out in Clarence Field and i felt better, slight.

thanks you know, really. thanks for doing all these undeserving things to me.

i deserve to live better than that and you stop ruining all my whole life.

if you're here to find trouble. please, i warn you to back off.

before i stop ignoring all these and yell in front of you leaking every piece of dirty shit you've done in front of every single one out there seeing if you still have the cheeks to talk all the rubbish in the world as you wish.

dont push me too far, dont try your luck, dont test me.

my limits are up, watch what you are doing.

i'd rather i treat it as nothing ever happened than you trying to make things worse.

im tolerating... watch your mouth especially.

dont come bother me, spare me some happiness to live in.

i dont mind losing all of this, just give me the peace that i deserve.

your actions are downright disgusting and despicable, i wish you've learnt and think about what ive told you months before about how you should act correctly.

im preparing to lose it, take it from me as fast as you could as i dont want this matter to drag on.

i plead for your understanding.

i pray for the best of every tomorrow damit.

just did a survey and i thought the questions got me thinking..

every morning getting out of bed with almost nothing to look forward is a pain

especially when its things i know i have to face it but i seriously dont want to, thats a torture

happy things to look forward to? really nothing much.

other than the fact that a few important people still stayed by my side through my darkest period and listen to my crap be it them taking up the roll as an advisor or not, they're still strongly needed, loved and cherished.

having someone there to share your sorrows is awesome.

but i have my part to make them laugh in the end and i always could (:

first period History and there's a newbie coming in that didnt know how to flip pages.

she almost tore every page she wanna turn to, in my textbook. how gentle~

though she got the style but not the look. what a hot one.

am i gonna survive through her ear piercing voice?

i'd rather mdm anxious wong to teach, seriously.

it would be much lively with the quick pace rather than carry a pair of ear plug with me every thursday.

E math next. totally doing great. Trigonometry.

maybe i havent come to the deadly part yet, thats what i strongly believe in.

recess was cool today. went to collect a dumb IC that i wanna escape from

excuse me, the picture was taken when i was left with half a breath? -.-

went to eat Roti Prata later cause Lydia, Kristy and Jieru eating Indian stall~ LOL!

finally patronize the indian fella after laughing my ass out on tuesday..

something funny happened though, about some cheese issue. LOL, joker

i felt like i was eating ink throughout my meal. eww

Roti Prata's texture like rubber. who told me that its nice? argh!

down the drink and hurried to class.

oh ya! i was caught for my socks this morning ;x

i was wearing black socks and have to be bare footed the whole day -.-

but thank god, my back up plan came into use from the last time when i was late from school and got caught by Mr Seah. hahaha!

so i wore quest socks for the remaining day and it disgust me.

Ms Ng is a joker, A math lesson is so fun and lively.

most importantly, the class was filled with laughter.

Ms Ng's fierce face = act cute face. LOLL! alternatively, wear-your-name-tag-face :D HAHAH

then english lesson was like talking session with Mei Hui :D

MT too, hahaha! and we were talking something Mr Ong always like to hear my stories

he told me to say it in chinese, lol. i tried, it sounded, crappy?

i dont even know what im saying. plus, my written chinese is all english interpret. omg. fail.

SE was laughing session and i kept knodding my head to this quote from George Washington.

oh wait, speaking about President. i thought Bolshevik and Weimar Government is link -.-

excuse me, my group had a good laugh at me today.

btw, for those who doesnt take history. Bolshevik is Russia at around 1919.

and Weimar Government is German at around that era too, after signing the TOV

what the crap, i thought Bolshevik ruled German and i was like what the hell is Weimar Government doing? LOL!

i should get my countries clear, damn.

im studying on Hitler now, similar actions to Stalin.

i bet one fine day ill think that Hitler is Stalin's successor.

hello?? Stalin is a Russian and Hitler is a German? LOL!

hurried to Tiong after school today with Priya and Clarissa to collect the music manuscript.

trying to gobble down my subway and an a message was conveyed...

today's band SK cancelled, WTHECK! ass... i started frowning then..

went home shortly after here and there in Tiong.

no, to school first. then grab my bag and home

waste my time only. tomorrow again, later cancel. i kill myself

and now its 7+, i have so many homework left undone and i dont really bother to do it

but i kinda have to cause its all counted in CA2. plus, many CT coming up soon.

weighing my shoulders and it felt like it've put on 10 pounds "/

looking forward to school tomorrow with a brand new start

ive decided and will never be wavered by any nonsense

im gonna blind my eyes from lip reading and make myself deaf by spamming music to the max in the morning contrasting with the serene atmosphere.

i dont give a shit man, i do what i like and all of yall just shut up

after school tomorrow will be like i-throw-my-bag-at-somewhere and go have fun

its friday excuse me, time to let your hair down and go around destroying school property.

wait, i think teachers does view my blog.

so, its just metaphorically, dont take it for real. LOL!

oh, but i still remember the fun with Ming Duo and Daryl Chiang in their own class doing some stuff that i kept on lauging and was totally shocked. cool man~ do it again? :D

oh, i help Ming Duo pick up his specs in the bus this morning

it dropped on the floor with the box and it broke. thank god not the specs.

he would have just lose it if i didnt walk behind him. people walking in front of me, behind him, are all heartless. they dont give a damn with the specs -.- asses. heartless people! selfish!

i need to do my history thats for sure, its already overdued like 1 month 1 day already. LOL!

bye peeps, im off here!

I wish that we would go back

To what we were before

But i don't think that i love you anymore, anymore

Wonder why it is that you don't see

What you've changed since we first met

And how much that it's killing me

Know that i will always miss

The butterflies of our first kiss

And how you use to smile so easily