you took my breath away when you flashed me a simplest smile,

successfully convinced me that not everything on earth is that complicated.

obviously i tried so hard to keep my words, until now...
its darn early in the morning and i slept less than 5 good hours in total -.-
the computer is locked, but im using it now, thanks to the bedroom that is locked.
my parents gotta look for a locksmith to open their room door, hahah! what a joke.
and i didnt know it was so expensive to open a darn lock just by using some weird ass metal and another weird shit metal ;x
i haven eaten for a beautiful 24 hours and i can feel my growl (jacob-like)
so previous week was so bad like i have to see doctor twice and spend more than 100 bucks in total because unfortunately i have the first rash on my body after living more a decade and a half
and someday last week was about fun with friends that i will not have again until next year, or even not anymore ):
and some people that i totally appreciate and was touched that he wanna fix my meal for me to take my medicines
through that fixing meal, we realise alot of things about each other which i think it was good to know
but again... so what? hah


going gym to run more than 6 rounds of the field was the shit
i have never ran so much in my entire life on a threadmill "/
that was totally awesome but doing weight trainings definitely didnt help to lose my weight no matter how much cardio i do
actually, i dont care... but somehow, i have to.. oh crap, ironic
exam is totally round the corner, i wish i'd started on my revision, unfortunately, i wish..
the test and new topics learnt are good enough to kill.
tell me where do i produce some time to revise on EOY?
i hope all of yall had started on revising..
i was hoping for something more after EOY
but im not sure if i could/want to get it.
till last night that i realise.. i could pull it through as long as i wanted; but i was so wrong
sometimes things are just uncontrollable. its better off leaving it as it is, and for that, i will rot.


you are not alone kept playing all around me at a very wrong time
is this some sort of torture? this is definitely not the truth if the player wants to tell me this

I can't refuse an offer so benevolent

Can't assume he's gon' use me

And after he'll never call again

Cus the same way I'm scared of him

I'm scared of being hurt again

It's time to let go, let go of your heart

It's time for a brand new start

Never know, we might never part

Baby don't be afraid, don't be afraid

This is your day, this is your day

YES! blogger regained! (just a lil bit), BUT. it regained! whoohoo! rejoice! ;DD
and currently someone at my house, so irritating...
doing F&N shit for that fella, kuku like hell.
and i totally had fun talking to Mr Choot on Friday night till 3 + for 3.5 hours, retardedly long...
so tired, i gotta call it a day though...
i thought he wouldnt call, because he was suppose to do some sports that day but it rained, so he didnt.
i was on my bed, messaging other friends, listening to my iPod, relaxing... preparing to sleep soon... he called me! LOL, my house! hahaha
once the phone rang i ran out to grab it cause i knew its gonna be him cause apparently my mom pick up the phone and he kept quiet like usual?? LOLLL!
he said thank god i saved him or he'll hang off, hahaha!
in fact, he didnt realise he called my house "/ he wanted to call my hp
and anyway, i called into 987fm and dedicated song again, i gotta feeling...
the DJ talked to me about Choot because she ask what was i doing.
Choot, being a very shy person, kept blaming me for announcing his name on national radio
and after that he was singing to i gotta feeling
and normally i'd sing along crazily with him but didnt, was quiet..
he realised the silence and he said... "okay la, dont sad dont sad. next time dont do this okay? i shy la!" HAHHAHA! cute shtyzxz!


Great saturday, flooded with seafood and... alcohol? HAHHAHA
my mom keep cheers-ing with me but i sip aaaa bit only then my face went red and hot, hahah!
at last i drank cocktail ;D phew~
bamboo clam! super nice.. fish, prawn, crab blah blah.. wow whee!
i was preparing it for the whole day till i lose track of time and its night already..
i didnt got to touch my book at all, so guilty ;x
watch Scary Movie 4 and Little Nicky and laughed like one asshole like mad
i was saying those lines to myself and i laugh to myself again, retarded? yes. HAHHAHA
the Jigsaw part was horribly funny and Rachel that kept on got struck my the lightning :D
and Little Nicky's very funny too, hahaha! laugh throughout the night.


Sunday, didnt really study.. so slack, holiday mood duh.
so i ate lunch but no proper dinner cause i was so full.
and somehow ate tangyuan at night 0.o LOL!
i slept super late and woke up, nauseous.
as if i was pregnant, i took some pills before i left for school punctual
lessons were ultra boring and stressful today
the weather added onto my stress, not only exams are coming up..
but so many thousand of tests too, difficult ones, irritating me.
was frowning throughout, tired, stress, warm and humid, ewws. today sucks
Trigo formula sucks and i hate it too.
went to Priya's class after school and extremely worried for Daniel..
if only he could deserve someone who can treat him better knowing his condition..
my heart aches seeing the wound on his hands, self destruction is definitely not the only way out
or you definitely wont be seeing me alive now, or at least, in a piece?
Im a lil self destructive though. mentally, but not physically..
Lunched with Priya, home with some asshole.


receiving good morning messages everyday is definitely something i feel blessed about.
but for some reason or another, even if this fella didnt reply me fast enough, like after a few hours then reply once.. at least there were moment that is fast and it reassured me.
of course, i got too used to it. 1 hour? no... 10mins just passed isnt it? hahah
tomorrow is totally going home straight after school, damn boring..
and this probably may be the last time you see me blogging something so longgg, or even a post, until exam's over.
not like i can party whole day after that, but at least im leaving this piece of land to another.
totally planning for Macau's trip. im gonna go to the Venice River, Ruins of St. Paul, The Fisherman's Wharf to see volcano structure and cross vent and a place with all the latest games in the world. also, war games and everything. awesome la!
going to Red Market and Alvenida or something. ah whatever.
its just gonna be fun, yes! ;D
cant wait for the dirty NCO camp, surely lotsa friends to make and fun!
Priya's done with her's, soon my turn ;D hope it doesnt rain for those few days or ill sink into the mud, ewws!
Wednesday, Chem after school.
Thursday Friday oral, yuck! im going gym again this friday, awesome!
gonna meet my pals again and can relieve a lil stress
okay, all of a sudden, i wish someone will be there for me. i can rely on and put all my stress behind me... "/
GTG, dont miss me if i dont blog. k? bye!

Cause baby

There's nothing I won't do

To spend my life with you

I'll give my all to you

I promise that I will never lie to you boy

Because i was heart-frozen, i know whats the feeling of dying...

somebody gotta tell me how to fix blogger, i dont wanna use other blog man...
all the archives cannot be replaced, thus.. im doing everything to keep this blog, even if its dead "/
since i couldnt keep it alive in reality...
i finally did it, i changed my bedsheet! :D
last night when i was on the phone with Choot, he was telling me that he didnt change his bedsheet since Looney Tunes also, i was laughing like crap
again, i have to be the one to hang off, cause i need to sleep O.O
and i remember the time i cook curry noodles and i was so smart to hear that you're gonna drink the soup, i stopped you just in time ;D HAHAHAH, thats super cool.
and then i stuff apples in your mouth, LOL! Crazy Taxi~ HAHAHAH!
so much you wanted to learn cantonese from me, thats the cutest shit ever
your favourite conversation using cantonese, talking to your own! hahaha
are you gonna call me tonight? (:


i did a LITTLE work today but i feel damn great
today was the best accomplishment ever since holidays started
hmm... tomorrow's outing cancelled.
maybe gonna go eat with parents at Sizzler? or... I cook pasta for them (:
i wanna go out tomorrow! but i doubt my parents are..
so maybe ill just rot at home and do some stress work..
i hope i can regain my memory for A Math of whatever that ive lost. (everything)
and also... from today onwards, i can totally take this one thing out of my conversation with everyone already
like finally, this one thing will disappear very soon...
im totally making announcement through the PA system. LOL!
September 11 today! definitely memorable, for me, and for the dead.
Lets commence a minute of silence to commemorate the death of the firefighters and victims and also not forgetting the blady assholes that caused the rest to die...
........................................................................................................
the economic is getting better, so lets rejoice~!


im worried for 2 friends currently..
both suffer from depression
please take care you two, you have someone hear who's willing to listen you out
i know the rest wouldnt, but i can understand..
its you two who gave me the courage to speak out my mind to y'all, so can we do it the other way round?
dont think too negatively! just speak to me people, for all you have done for me, i appreciate it.


Oh, daddy went to NTUC and bought alot of nice food with me ;D
i took and he just say, ah okay okay.. LOL!
i have ice cream in my fridge and ima eat it now! awesome! :D yes!
Okay, someone's driving me crazy now..
And for the fact that yesterday another person did -.-
some crazy bastard from Queensway is so disgusting, eww! gross shit!
nevermind, ill go enjoy my ice cream now (: bye~

why does my blogger have problem? i really dont know
some people dont even have problems ah!
i cant upload photos i cant put colours, asshole.
oh, btw. yesterday was ironically happy for me.
Its very very very happy, not normal happy.
i can feel my heart thumping especially hard during that period (:
dont know if you're gonna see this cause i told you ima post but, BUT. im really really very happy!! :D
thanks for taking the first move, cause i got scared by you till i shiver
and its awesome when you always appear at the right time..
whenever i needed some lame jokes to make me laugh (: k wait!
Your jokes are never lame!! the most original one, HAHAHHA! i make them good girls so BADDDD~ ;D HEH!
thank you thank you thank you thank you! and i super missed you during this 1 month...
everything's gonna just continue isnt it? (:
we're putting the past behind us...
Boy, you caught me off guard.. Always...
then last night i called a thousand times into 987fm to sing fire's burning on the dance floor, ooh woah oh~! with Choot, LOLL!! damn fun! HAHAHHA! ah shit, its just damn funny. hahaha!
Last night was ironically happy... i was lowering my pillow to prepare to sleep and wake up early tomorrow and an intruder came into my night to allow me to have a peaceful sleep ;D
shan't praise you anymore, LOL! later call and scream at me! HAHAHAH!


life is damn B U S Y right now okay!! OMG!
everyone knows that, but im even busier!
shat. 3 days subway consecutively! im feeling great!
gym caused my whole body to ache now, crap! new training... (:
curry chicken rice twice! :D
currently there's one retard from queensway saying baby sweetie shit to me, wtf
LOL, i said. honey, fuck off. HAHAHHAHHAHAH!!
and im Slarted, Priya, right? :D HAHAHAH
and Mindy is vex over me tagging her so many photos on facebook! :D no more miao miao~ ;D
meet up with my cool confidant today, lovin it
waited for clar for one crazy hour?!
but SOULMATE called me at the right time and i talked to her for like more than half an hour? :D fun shtyzxz!
no picture not my fault la, blogger sucks.
this holiday has 0 accomplishment.
its seriously time for me to buck up, im doom for sure.


after throwing everything out i feel like im 10kg lighter!! :D
its damn comfortable and i have no time at home totally
tomorrow ill stay at home to study! i wanna change my bedsheet man!!
i wanna do cleaning! damn it la, not free!
Hmm... i doubt im going Perth already 0.o
i think ill just be leaving to Hong Kong and Macau ;D
wont be in singapore for christmas!! that is the most awesome thing ever for this christmas (:
the best arrangement! and im gonna freeze down there cause its gonn abe effing cold ;D
I'm still excited for the Jarkata trip, yesah! :D
cant wait to leave singapore with my dudes, gonna bond!
i musnt spend so much money to buy so many clothes in hong kong..
cause i remembered the last time i went there, i bought too many things and ate seafood for more than S$2000!! siao
and Macau is like so cool, its lin boys over flowers? LOL!
and ima go to the Venice stream... alright, Venice.. screw that place -.-


so little days left to oral, this is madness.
i wanna study properly, someone gotta push me man! D:

why does my blogger have problem? i really dont know
some people dont even have problems ah!
i cant upload photos i cant put colours, asshole.
oh, btw. yesterday was ironically happy for me.
Its very very very happy, not normal happy.
i can feel my heart thumping especially hard during that period (:
dont know if you're gonna see this cause i told you ima post but, BUT. im really really very happy!! :D
thanks for taking the first move, cause i got scared by you till i shiver
and its awesome when you always appear at the right time..
whenever i needed some lame jokes to make me laugh (: k wait!
Your jokes are never lame!! the most original one, HAHAHHA! i make them good girls so BADDDD~ ;D HEH!
thank you thank you thank you thank you! and i super missed you during this 1 month...
everything's gonna just continue isnt it? (:
we're putting the past behind us...
Boy, you caught me off guard.. Always...
then last night i called a thousand times into 987fm to sing fire's burning on the dance floor, ooh woah oh~! with Choot, LOLL!! damn fun! HAHAHHA! ah shit, its just damn funny. hahaha!
Last night was ironically happy... i was lowering my pillow to prepare to sleep and wake up early tomorrow and an intruder came into my night to allow me to have a peaceful sleep ;D
shan't praise you anymore, LOL! later call and scream at me! HAHAHAH!


life is damn B U S Y right now okay!! OMG!
everyone knows that, but im even busier!
shat. 3 days subway consecutively! im feeling great!
gym caused my whole body to ache now, crap! new training... (:
curry chicken rice twice! :D
currently there's one retard from queensway saying baby sweetie shit to me, wtf
LOL, i said. honey, fuck off. HAHAHHAHHAHAH!!
and im Slarted, Priya, right? :D HAHAHAH
and Mindy is vex over me tagging her so many photos on facebook! :D no more miao miao~ ;D
meet up with my cool confidant today, lovin it
waited for clar for one crazy hour?!
but SOULMATE called me at the right time and i talked to her for like more than half an hour? :D fun shtyzxz!
no picture not my fault la, blogger sucks.
this holiday has 0 accomplishment.
its seriously time for me to buck up, im doom for sure.


after throwing everything out i feel like im 10kg lighter!! :D
its damn comfortable and i have no time at home totally
tomorrow ill stay at home to study! i wanna change my bedsheet man!!
i wanna do cleaning! damn it la, not free!
Hmm... i doubt im going Perth already 0.o
i think ill just be leaving to Hong Kong and Macau ;D
wont be in singapore for christmas!! that is the most awesome thing ever for this christmas (:
the best arrangement! and im gonna freeze down there cause its gonn abe effing cold ;D
I'm still excited for the Jarkata trip, yesah! :D
cant wait to leave singapore with my dudes, gonna bond!
i musnt spend so much money to buy so many clothes in hong kong..
cause i remembered the last time i went there, i bought too many things and ate seafood for more than S$2000!! siao
and Macau is like so cool, its lin boys over flowers? LOL!
and ima go to the Venice stream... alright, Venice.. screw that place -.-


so little days left to oral, this is madness.
i wanna study properly, someone gotta push me man! D:

bought plenty of stuff yesterday, clothes again :P
im so dead, my mom's wallet got squeezed dry buy me, heh!
yeah. im so not gonna buy any 'new years clothe' because almost everything that i wear out now is new
and i still have one load of them that i have not worn before at all
i have too damn many dresses in my wardrobe..
looking back.. there's a huge change in there... hahah, had fun, who cares ;D
so yesterday was Priya's birthday and she went out only with me, right... (:
we buy stuff and owned the whole orchard
bought things from far east and ION. not bad
got my hoodie! woots, so happy ;D and my belt
though i cant get the high waist shorts i wanted, but i got an awesome high waist skirt. HAHAHA!
went to bugis later and Priya got the shock of her life planned by Kym, Marilyn and me ;D
Kym's gonna get another surprise ganged up by the other 3 of us too
and next its gonna be Marilyn's birthday... so we shall see (;
mine's like long gone, and im just waiting for the next year, big shit 16 ;D *winks winks* hinting! hahahah


just wouldnt know how awesomely peaceful and sweet last night was
and now let me explain my msn nick last night... i feel like i have a boyfriend..
okay, maybe not.. lets just skip it.
anyway, it was awesome (: just like everyone will greet you good morning to brighten your day and good night to end your worries and have a peaceful night..
of course, i have a confidant. i love it. that is like a total mirror of me, we have exact same thinking.
so much of a soulmate, but still ill keep a distance away from anybody...
unknowingly... im masked.. i didnt wish to either.
this explains to my confidant's question... thats a secret
it's time i should go praying for myself again...
not for anyone, but myself...
cause at least i know... someone out there is praying for me, i appreciate it
not much people know what im talking about here because you guys totally know nothing about my current situation..
its like... at the verge of breaking down and going berserk.
so forgive me if i do let out..


today was a good day for me, nice dinner
and im feeling completely sinful for eating milk chocolate today! shat!
i shall repent and amend on tuesday ;D
everyone was talking about me, right.. i existed..
and of course, im suppose to be sleeping now..
tomorrow's gonna be a stress/relax day.. it all depends on how starbucks can get me high.. yes CFCs? HAHHAHA!
you guys are suppose to wait for me!! GRRR!
Starbucks asshole, blaming me for my band arent you ;D
i need to sleep soon... like really soon...
so shall go off now. tonight's an emo night
i shall wear my hoodie tomorrow, i hope its cooling like today...
this kinda warmth, i really need it. nothing else couold provide a better one..




because of you i never stray too far from the side walk
because of you i learn to play on the safe side so i dont get hurt
because of you im ashamed of my life
because its empty
because of you i am afraid
because of you


and you totally feel no guilt at all

I'm so pissed with blogger, idk when it can recover
but i decided not to wait any longer..
cause i will forbid myself from going online after the hols, officially!
so yeah, lets just blog, plain colour -.- boring. whatever.
hey, i had lotsa fun at Darran's party totally.
Met a few crazy bratty monsters that almost caused all of our lives. LOL!
they chase you and whack you. crazy ang mohs, that's Darran's friend alright.. hahahha!
i have lotsa pictures that day (: gonna post it as soon as blogger dont die on me


Monday was ACES day and our class got 2nd. i was extremely happy and proud of my class (:
videos can be found on my facebook yep.
wanted to catch The Proposal that day with a gang but later on, too many activities took place
Ate Botak Jones, Ernest's so called JI Jones.. LOLL!
Went home with someone unexpected, so its kinda... lol nvm..


Tuesday was a failure on the planning of Sentosa trip
but too many activities took place under my roof..
went to vivo to have KFC dinner and walk around a lil.
i couldnt believe i did something so absurd, or perhaps... something i shouldnt have the guts to do "/
but obviously, it wasnt so easy at all.. the day was... yeah, great.


Wednesday school.. tired and boring..
wanna start my full swing but so lazy..
anyway, since idk which day.. i finally felt the feeling of someone greeting you everyday morning again
it was quite nice, sweet and satisfied.
after school proceeded to Far East and Cine with some girls.
ended up at Holland subway with Priya and finally got to bitch again
It was awesome, but i seem to fail to get things through her mind..
how stubborn is that girl. she just doesnt know how to grab hold of opportunity.
calling out to Priya, please reconsider again...


Today is a sleepy and hot day.. Had history lesson with a whole load of people from all classes
E math back to Ms Ng, im pretty happy
Had good time laughing during English
and Mei Hui and i laughed about so much everyday and i keep telling myself im so gonna blog about it but as if i could remember
damn, too bad. cant share with you guys but its awesome, funny!
had STI talk today, it was, Funny?
cause all they want us to do is not to sex, all kinda exzcuses -.-
like, get a life. thats not the way. everyone will go crazy if everybody's like that
but nevermind, someone will just have to agree with those nonsense
despite for the fact that the dick was really disgusting enough for me to puke
today, i stress my mind way too much, about so many things..
well, i had a full itinerary of my Jarkata trip :D so fun!
until now im still brooding over OBS. i cant go okay and someone has to take my place -.-
Jarkata Jarkata... why must you appear at this time?
I cant go OBS luh?! sigh..


btw im so so shocked. i cant believe that so many people remember me!!
i am so touched when Priya told me that many people were asking about/for me when she return to primary
some other friends also told me that teachers were expecting me..
damn, im a total bitch. i should have went back! regretted ):
but i promised that ima return next year, MUST!
so yup, Priya's gonna be my alarm! :D
man, the best thing is that they know so much about my personal life
how could this be?!?! impossible 0.o so odd, but cool ;D
Tomorrow's friday, finally... no gym tomorrow..
guess it will be boring for me cause most of my friends aint free, dang. boring~




And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart
Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart