see you got me all alone
waiting right here by the phone
for you to call me
just to hear your voice tone

think so much .. too much .. i dont know

but i guess it dont belongs to me ..

i dont know why everytime i light up someone's life , i will darken mine ..

i dont want mine to darken anymore .

so i shall not light up anyone's life ..

maybe im being too selfless last time .. thats why ..

from now on , im gonna be like any other human ..

be selfish . extraordinary selfish ..

i wanna be a HONGSTER

i dont wanna be TIONGXIM anymore .

tiongxim die first , hongster will never die .

tiongxim sucks big time la ..

HONGSTER RAWKS !!

i will drop whoever i am .. when i use to be someone who bring people out of darkness ..

now its time , i wait for someone to bring me out of darkness ..

i gotta learn how to be selfish .. yeah ..

i just crapped . ahh !! whatever ~ im confuse now .. -.-

i was so fucking tired yesterday ..

just sitting by the phone , waiting for you to call back ..

after 15mins .. i felt totally tired ..

after 30mins , decided to wait still .. felt a lil weaker in persistency ..

45mins .. went to toilet wash my face .. -.- like a fool !

1 hour .. finally 1 hour .. was it worth the while waiting ?

if you were actually doing other stuff like gaming ..

i guess i would just wait .. but for that .. hurr ! nah ~

maybe its a lil hard for you la .. but too bad ..

theres no such thing ..

and i thought theres only one choice you can choose ..

but before you make any decision that might break my heart again ..

i think i will let go .. so yeah ..

all the things that you've said .. believed .

other than that .. im full of doubts .

doubting of your words . your sincerity . your honesty .

doubting almost everything ..

for now that im gonna clear the doubts ..

let go ..

you're a heartbreaker .

my heart is dead . once again .